I just feel like I need to ask. On Sunday, January 15(?) did anyone else have a knot in their stomach? Did anyone else have this gut feeling that we weren't going to win that game against the Giants? Granted I was yelling at the TV for the bad stuff, and cheering for the good stuff, the initial feeling was still nagging at me all game. I felt like maybe I wasn't being a good fan... it started to drive me nuts. How can someone be a fan of a team, especially a team like the Packers and think that they're team is going to lose? I didn't WANT them to lose, but I had this feeling that couldn't be shook.
I don't claim to be psychic or have premonitions or anything but Friday, Saturday, and Sunday before the game I just felt off. I felt weird. I knew the Giants were going to give us hell. I had a feeling that I tried to suppress and hide from others. The Packers were going to lose. I didn't want to admit it to myself, let alone any other Packers fans.
I have been a Packers fan since I was about 9 years old. I am 25 now. Out of all the sports I follow, and my favorite teams from each sport, the Packers are the team I love the most and the team I follow the closest. After the loss, I did not lose any love for them...but I just felt like my soul was shot in the head. It was hard to be happy about much of anything. I even went back and started watching Super Bowl XLV on youtube and I just couldn't get excited.
The sting has worn off, but the "what if.." and the "we shoulda..." is just killing me still. This was OUR season, damnit!
I am excited about next year, and getting to Super Bowl XLVII and winning it, don't get me wrong. I feel that the team is going to come out of the gates strong and never let up. XLVII is OURSSSSS!
Still, do my previous feelings at the end of our season make me a bad fan? I love the Packers, always have and always will be I feel so bad about how I felt before that Giants game that I just can't keep it bottled up anymore... I just had to ask you guys/gals and vent.
Thanks for lending an 'ear', so to speak.
--Rob.