Let's clear something up, shall we? We shall. Unfortunately that blog entry has disappeared. How did the whole suicide thing turn out? The intelligence (or lack there of) you posses is striking with that comment. I did hit a pretty hard pathetic low in my life at that time, which by the way was well over six months ago. The main reason of it all stemmed from NOT being allowed to be a father for my daughter. The courts in Wisconsin favor women, massively as I found out. It had nothing to do with a girlfriend because at the time, I was single. It was nothing to do with my job, because I liked my job. I was taking four advanced college courses while working 40 hours a week, which took its toll, but if you want to blast me, do it with accuracy. It was primarily because I knew my daughter needed me and I couldn't be there for her. So the whole having a gf who didnt want me turning her into a sniveling weak kid, well just another made up comment. Even as much of a low as I hit at that time, I never came to a forum, found what I felt was sensitive material, kept it stored and attempted to use it to bash someone more than six months after its entry, never. Who's pathetic now? In fact the only reason I'm replying to this is because some people here actually cared. I spewed the bad, I'll share the good. Since that blog entry my daughters mother went into the Army which gave me full placement of my daughter. Something I had been fighting for for over 4 years. That lasted two months because her mother was discharged from the Army for failure to adapt. However, I retained 50/50 placement because of the overwhelming maturity and good job I did with her in just those two months. She's doing much better in school now that her daddy is in her life helping her every chance he can and is much happier. I graduated college on my 27th birthday with a sub reaching potential GPA of 3.0. I moved into a nice duplex in Howard (that has a GARAGE!!, shush first time for me). And as of the middle of January I started working as a Programmer / Analyst for the largest Beef Processing company in the world making over 40k a year. Life couldn't be better and I'm about to get my daughter four days a week which means about 60/40 placement or so. The bottom line is I hit a pretty pathetic low to post a blog here about it. There were a lot of other things in my life like my father being gone, my mother continuing to drink herself closer to the end and some other things that all hit me at once and it was a struggle. But guess what. I toughed it out like the rest of the world has to and made the most of every situation that I could possibly do. I don't have to go to a forum and attempt to insult people to make myself feel better. I simply spend more time with my daughter and that's all I need to make my day better. So again I ask, who's pathetic now? PS, those who shared kind words in that blog, thank you, I do and did appreciate it.